I tag no one because it isn't important to read this.
This is for me, if you want to comment, go ahead, but don't be a jackass about it.

I'm too sensitive, and I feel much pain, pain of others, my pain, pain in general. Emotional, Mental, and Physical. This triad of an assault on my senses is too much to bear.


You have hurt me deeply by treating me in the same manner someone who love does.
You have hurt me deeply by denying me my right to see my mother, on several occasions.
You have hurt me deeply by not standing up to the man who has denied me right to see you.
You have hurt me deeply by pretending I don't exist.
You have hurt me deeply by giving me mixed messages.
You have hurt me deeply because you're someone i can connect with, but whom I cannot seek out, because if I do, you push me away further.
You have hurt me deeply by ignoring every attempt I make at improvement.
You have hurt me deeply by throwing away 3 years of Friendship
You have hurt me deeply by judging me and tossing me aside because you don't like some things about me. (That's petty, by the way).
You have hurt me deeply by trying to control me.
You have hurt me deeply by not caring, while I care so much
You have hurt me deeply by not trying to understand who I am.

And I have hurt myself deeply by not taking the time to know myself, or to understand who I am.

I have burned a lot of bridges lately. I am cleaning my slate. A possible deletion of my facebook may be necissary. A new myspace may be necissary. When I move off campus, few of you will be told where I will be living. Not like you would remember anyways.

I am an unessisary person. I shouldn't exist.
It hurts me to care and to love about others. I give and I give, expecting nothing in return, and I get nothing in return, which is fine, but maybe i'm tired of caring when no one else does. I'm tired of trying to take care of my friends and to be there for them, because when I finally want thier help or understanding, they aren't there.


If I could sleep and never wake up, I would.
If i could get away with dissapearing forever and not existing, I would.
If i could vanish into thin air and stay away for centuries, I would.
if i could bury myself alive and sleep for eternity, I would.


If I could die and not hurt myself or anyone else in the process, I would.
If only I could forget I had feelings, so that I could forget about you. All of you, so that i would not be saddened because you have already forgotten me.

I would. I promise I would.
I no longer wish to be a burden upon you all.

I hope you understand why these bridges are burned. You wouldn't care to get the first plank to rebuild it anyways, and I certaintly won't help you.